fuck dat shit

so today I decided I was going to hey mister a pack of cigarettes, bad idea from the start.

this middle aged guy was kinda lurkin around and he looked a little rough so I figured I'd ask him. He says no.

And not only does he say no but he looks kind of bothered. So I'm a little upset now because I have no cigarettes and some random man gave me a bad look, so I pick up my book (Animal Farm) and start reading a little.

He comes back, the man, and squats so that he's my height (I'm sitting on a bench) and tells me that cigarettes killed his father... And that his father chain smoked and made him and his brothers & sisters eat tobacco so that they'd never smoke... And that I better not start, because cigarettes are more addictive than heroin.

I was too dumbstruck to blow up at him. I wanted to tell him: FUCK YOU. Don't you EVER compare those two drugs, ever. And furthermore-- I'm still offended that, because I'm a white girl dressed nicely (I'm classy today), that I want to start smoking & don't already. I had my first cigarette when I was eight years old, and I started again because I don't like who I am and I don't necessarily care if I get lung cancer--- Seriously, I don't need anymore reason to, so they say, "hate the person I've become".

And honestly, it's none of his fucking business a simple "no" would've been enough. Making me feel like I was the one who killed his father over the actual chain smoking was completely unnecessary & made me retreat to the bathroom of starbucks and cry for two hours.

thanks a lot.